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Saturday, February 13, 2010

I Was Scared To Sleep

Who knows, perhaps after flirting with death too often, death attracts you.” Karl Lagerfeld, about Mr McQueen

When I was little I was afraid to die. But now,somehow,it doesn't seem so scary anymore.

Sometimes you can't help it y'know,you've had had a bunch of bad days,everything is just so fuck up,and you just secretly hope that you won't get to see the sun again next day. I hate this feeling,this thought.


  1. when i was aboute 8-10 i would nerly ones a week go crying up to my parents because i was afraid if deth, and i would ask what it was, but now i am more mellow and i dont really fear deth (ofcause i dont want to die, but deth is a part of living you cant get around)

  2. You just got to live like everyday's the last. But that's easier said than done. We all have this fear. I had the most intense emotion toward death when I was a teenager. One night I thought I would die, but the next day I woke up and just laughed at it.

  3. When I was in high school I was deeply convinced I wouldn't live longer than to my 21st birhtday. I wasn't even planning any future or anything. However, I changed my mind (obviously) and I'm still around :) No, seriously, what I mean is - it's good to HATE this thought, like you wrote it, it's far batter (and more sane) than to LIKE this thought, this feeling.

    I keep wondering what had to be going on in Alexander McQueen's head when he made SUCH a decision. I always wonder what exactly ppl feel in such situations...


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