A Perfect Day to Torture Myself

I should have the guts to say this earlier,just now.

I had an awful day,today.

(in fact I think this week is gonna be suckish)

I don't feel like talking about it.

And after school I decided to torture myself.

Instead of walking the usual path home,I took the longer path.

I had no idea why I decided to do that. I walked and walked.

2 1/2 miles.

I wasn't even sure where I was going,I just kept on walking

I think the the sun knew what I was planning on doing,and decided to play along.

It shined it rays so brightly onto me and it was so hot.

But I didn't mind. Not one bit.

As I walked I thought about things had happened to me for the past few years.

And for the first time in my life,

I know what its like and truly understand the feeling of being alone.

***

Plus,I lost my calculator. Again.

I'm such a dumbass.

"at some point along the road i realized

"i'm sorry"

just wasn't good enough

it doesn't take the pain away"