Inspiration

Searchlights over London

“Dear God, let me be something every minute of every hour of my life.
Let me be gay; let me be sad. Let me be cold; let me be warm. Let me be hungry…have too much to eat.
Let me be ragged or well dressed. Let me be sincere — be deceitful. Let me be truthful; let me be a liar.
Let me be honorable and let me sin. Only let me be something every blessed minute.
And when I sleep, let me dream all the time so that not one little piece of living is ever lost.”

-Betty Smith

I don't really know or decide what to say yet. But here's a little inspiration to help you get through this week.

Blood Like Honey

“I wanted to kill the me underneath. That fact haunted my days and nights.
When you realize you hate yourself so much, when you realize that you cannot stand who you are,
and this deep spite has been the motivation behind your behavior for many years,
your brain can’t quite deal with it. It will try very hard to avoid that realization; it will try,
in a last-ditch effort to keep your remaining parts alive, to remake the rest of you.
This is, I believe, different from the suicidal wish of those who are in so much pain
that death feels like relief, different from the suicide I would later attempt, trying to escape that pain.
This is a wish to murder yourself; the connotation of kill is too mild.
This is a belief that you deserve slow torture, violent death.”

—Marya Hornbacher

I'm sorry everyone,for being so whiny and upset! I wish I weren't like this.
But on a lighter note,Happy Halloween!
Eat many,many sweets and watch many,many horror films okay?

(As for me,I don't really like candy so I ate many,many chocolates)

Think Quietly

“The world is full of things like that: old postcards, theatre programmes,
leafles about bomb-proofing your cellar, greetings cards, photograph albums,
holiday brochures, instruction booklets for machine tools, maps, catalogues,
railway timetables, menu cards from long-gone cruise liners - all kinds of things
that onced served a real and useful purpose, but have now become cut adrift from the things
and the people they relate to. ~ They might have come from anywhere.
They might have come from other worlds. That scribbled-on map,
that publisher’s catalogue - they might have been put down absent-mindedly in another universe,
and been blown by a chance wind through an open window,
to find themselves after many adventures on a market-stall in our world.”

-Phillip Pullman in the preface to Lyra’s Oxford

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I've received back my exams results. Even though I'm quite unsatisfied at how some
of the grades turned out,I'm glad that I pass everything. Even Math and Physics.
I feel so relief and quite happy at the same time that all the hard work paid off.
I haven't been doing anything interesting recently and
I still have yet to clear my desk and arrange the books.
But I just began reading Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov and I must say,
that the writing is absolutely brilliant.
The holidays are approaching soon
and I'll pretend that school would never have to open again
and rest my soul for a thousand years.

Pastel Shipwrecks

Wow. I'm back blogging after so many weeks.

I miss not getting touching with you all.

Alot things had been going
on the pass weeks. It was really boring actually.
Almost my entire day time was taken up by school activities and extra classes.

Terrible.
I spent the past week studying...and not studying.

It was quite intense and rush because we had to recall back
all the things that we've learnt throught the year,beginning till end.

I was worrying and panicking through the entire
exam period. I still am now through,a little bit.

I don't think I gave my best this time 'round. But its all over and
we're done for the this school year.

We're just waiting for the results and school holidays now.

Oh,since the exams were over I finally gotten the chance

to go to my favourite local bookstore again.
It's been a long time since I last went and it felt really good to be there again.

It just felt like home to me.
That's about it I think.

I just wanted to tell you all how happy I was when I was there.
I'll post another time. Now I'm going to catch up on your blogs.

I've missed out alot!

Staying Afloat

(writing to her father) “I have learnt how to live… How to be In the world and Of the world,
and not just to stand aside and watch. And I will never, never again run away from life.
Or from love, either…”

Other than the fact that my pens are always going missing
(i think the little elves and gnomes in the school garden took them!)and mom
being so overprotective of me,life is fine now.
And hopefully it'll get even better.
The exams are in one week's time and I have many things to cover on.

Anxious. That's the right word to describe how I'm feeling the pass few hectic days.
But that's normal for me I guess,I feel like this all the time and possibly,everyday of my life.
I can't wait for everything to be over,then I'll sleep forever till next season,and flyaway to dreamland.

I wish everyone a lovely day. May all of you gain the desires of you heart. love.

Love-Knot

And still on a winter’s night, they say, when the wind is in the trees,
When the moon is a ghostly galleon tossed upon cloudy seas,
When the road is a gypsy’s ribbon looping the purple moor,
The highwayman comes riding—
Riding—riding—
The highwayman comes riding, up to the old inn-door.

Over the cobbles he clatters and clangs in the dark inn-yard,
He taps with his whip on the shutters, but all is locked and barred,
He whistles a tune to the window, and who should be waiting there
But the landlord’s black-eyed daughter—
Bess, the landlord’s daughter—
Plaiting a dark red love-knot into her long black hair.

-The Highwayman’ by Alfred Noyes

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I've got a some news to share with all of you all. I'm going on a holiday this summer. My Dad is taking us (Mom and I) to Europe. We're going going on tour and we'll be covering places like, London,Paris,Germany,Switzerland and Netherlands. So,if anyone of you lives there,I just want to let you know that I'll be visiting your beautiful country! I'm really excited because this the first time that I'll be going to far way places like these and if I'm lucky,maybe, I'll even get to experience a little bit of snow for the first time. My flight is tonight and I'll be away for two weeks. Which means my blog will most probably be dead until I come back.


Please forgive me if I didn't mention about this earlier. Its just that there were many things going on and I wanted to make sure that this trip was really confirm before I said anything to anybody.


So..um,that's about it. I'll promise that when I get back I'll post pictures and I'll make sure I'll really post them this time 'round. I don't want to break my promise like last time.


Have a wonderful and blessed days ahead everyone! :-)
(I apologise again I didn't mention this earlier)

Audrey & Grace

Grace Kelly and Audrey Hepburn backstage at the Oscars in 1955.

Too much lovely in one room!
lovelovelove!

The Passage of Time

Its funny how everyday feels the same.

You do the same things,go through the same routines.

But at the end of the day or maybe some point of time,

you look back and think everything isn't the same anymore like it was yesterday.

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I'm excited what tomorrow may bring but at the same time I'm afraid.

I mean, you have no idea what's going to happen.

Is it a good thing,a bad thing,difficult or easy to deal with?

I don't know.

Finally,

sun kissed skin

yellow leaves that dance

"good morning"

i look out of my window

i'm not pretending or trying to be positive,

but i'm speaking the truth

don't you see?

the world looks so beautiful

yes,i think it will be alright

after all,

I Fell In Love with Black&White Photos