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Sunday, October 31, 2010

Blood Like Honey


“I wanted to kill the me underneath. That fact haunted my days and nights.
When you realize you hate yourself so much, when you realize that you cannot stand who you are,
and this deep spite has been the motivation behind your behavior for many years,
your brain can’t quite deal with it. It will try very hard to avoid that realization; it will try,
in a last-ditch effort to keep your remaining parts alive, to remake the rest of you.
This is, I believe, different from the suicidal wish of those who are in so much pain
that death feels like relief, different from the suicide I would later attempt, trying to escape that pain.
This is a wish to murder yourself; the connotation of kill is too mild.
This is a belief that you deserve slow torture, violent death.”

—Marya Hornbacher

I'm sorry everyone,for being so whiny and upset! I wish I weren't like this.
But on a lighter note,Happy Halloween!

Eat many,many sweets and watch many,many horror films okay?
(As for me,I don't really like candy so I ate many,many chocolates)

11 comments:

  1. That bit of prose really got to me. That's not a good way to feel, that's for sure! I hope you are doing much better than that, and I hope you have a happy halloween also...

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  2. Happy Halloween!
    Loved your writing :)

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  3. Chocolate wins over sweets every time, for sure! :)

    I hope you don't feel as strongly as that quote. You are a beautiful person.

    Kate x

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  4. Happy Halloween my dear.
    You don't have to be sorry for anything.
    I hope you feel better soon.




    LOVE!

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  5. Oh dear, now you have me worried, I can only hope that you don't feel as badly as the words of this poem suggest. Hugs from England.

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  6. darling, hope you feel better soon, sometimes it´s hard but we have to carry on :)
    by the way, i´m reading a book that´s helping me a lot, for these last two years are being quite hard for me... maybe it helps you too... you can give it a try ;) this is the title: "the power of now" by Eckhart Tolle

    all my love!

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  7. never apologize for being whiny, everybody needs to get it out :D
    that book looks so interesting!

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  8. i am in love with that quote.

    hope you had a nice Halloween.

    xox

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  9. you have amazing quotes, star. i hope you had a magnificent halloween!

    x, lia

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