Empty

"There is something demoralizing about watching two people get more and more
crazy about each other, especially when you are the only extra person in the room.
It's like watching Paris from an express caboose heading in the opposite direction
-every second the city gets smaller and smaller, only you feel it's really you
getting smaller and smaller and lonelier and lonelier,
rushing away from all those lights and excitement at about a million miles an hour."
— Sylvia Plath (The Bell Jar)

Its truly upsetting and terrifying to feel this way all the time.
Not just about watching two people together,but about everything.