Mom is feeling unwell.
It sucks.
This is the time when I start to feel
Gulity.Sad.Self-Critical.Afraid.
That sucks even alot more.
I'm starting to regret things.
Mean things that I've said to/about my Mom.
Even for the ones that I wasn't at fault.
So this is me,
A selfless,hypocrite daughter.
I feel terrible.
"The devil says it's my fault
I'm stupid enough to listen to him."
P.S. I didn't give Mom anything for Mother's Day. She doesn't like things like that. She prefers love & affection from her daughter. I'm trying. I'm trying. I'm trying.
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Certainly not selfless or you wouldn't have written this post.
ReplyDeleteWell, it sounds like you and your mom can never see eye to eye on things, and it's not JUST your fault. It takes two to be in an argument, and your mom is at as much fault as you.
ReplyDeleteI just hope she feels better soon. :/
xx,
~Abby~
No worries, we're all human. Just because people (husbands, parents, etc.) get on our nerves sometimes doesn't mean we don't love them! Hope she feels better soon.
ReplyDeleteall you can do is try.
ReplyDeleteand since you are trying there isn't much else.
i think you are formidable.
You know I said it before..we all hurt the ones we love the most. I had a horrible relationship with my Mom growing up. It is never too late to make things right and you are heading in the right direction!
ReplyDeleteMy best wishes to your Mom! I hope she gets well soon! I know it is hard when our Moms are sick. MOthers to us are always the one person who remains strong and when they get sick it is tough!
You love your Mom and that is what matters!
I've felt like this before...Christiejolu is right, it's the ones we love the most whom we hurt the most. Remain strong, tell your mum that you love her - I'm sure that's the best gift.
ReplyDeleteYou are not a selfish daughter. We all have moments when we get mad at each other or feel unloved. But trust me, there is nothing but love in your relationship with her.
ReplyDeleteYou are lovely.
I hope your mom feels better soon.
Stay strong.
I like you.
LOVE!
This too will pass. Everything will be okay.
ReplyDeleteI hope you feel better and don't blame it all on yourself.
Sometimes trying, like you say you're doing, is the best thing. Because if something were so easy that it didn't take any effort or pain, would somebody actually be happy that you did it for them? Trying hard for somebody is the best thing you can ever do for them.
ReplyDeleteDon't feel guilty. We all say things we want to take back. The best part is that mothers usually do let us take them back. I hope your mother gets better.
I get what you're feeling I think, my mom was feeling sick (she had ammonia) and had to go to the hospital a couple of months ago. You're so afraid something bad will happen and you'll never be able to say sorry or make up for the things you did/said. Hope your mom gets better soon. =] -Hannah
ReplyDeleteYou can always mend relationships. Sometimes, it can be really hard to express your love. Go ahead, tell your Mom how important she is to you.
ReplyDeleteIt might take some time, but keep trying!:)
Have a good day...
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ReplyDeleteDon't feel bad about this! She knows you really love her. Besides, I didn't give my mum anything for Mother's Day, either!
ReplyDeleteAlso, you shouldn't regret anything. I used to regret almost everything, but then I started to believe that everything happens for a reason, and that my actions are all part of God's plan. That sounds kinda stupid, LOL.
Happy B'day for Thursday! I honestly hope it's a good day for you :D
xx Blaize.
The DEVIL IS A LIAR!!! He hates it when you give your Mom----YOU!!!!!
ReplyDeleteSo tick him off real good! And look right at her and say--Mom- I LOVE YOU!!!
and really really mean it!
John