“Dear God, let me be something every minute of every hour of my life. Let me be gay; let me be sad. Let me be cold; let me be warm. Let me be hungry…have too much to eat. Let me be ragged or well dressed. Let me be sincere — be deceitful. Let me be truthful; let me be a liar. Let me be honorable and let me sin. Only let me be something every blessed minute. And when I sleep, let me dream all the time so that not one little piece of living is ever lost.”
-Betty Smith
I don't really know or decide what to say yet. But here's a little inspiration to help you get through this week.
when cute strangers hold the door for you and you wake up to text messages and you feel appreciated and when you are sunburned and your body is warm and cold showers in the summer and diet cokes on the porch and music soaks into your soul and when someone talks to you first and when “i love you” comes from them first and airplanes and grass stains and when you catch the sunset just in time and when the coffee is just right and when you get mail and green lights and when suddenly you wake up and you feel better and hand holding and when you have adventures and when you learn to drive and when books make you cry and awkward small talk and new notebooks and when you you feel cosy and warm drinking tea near the fireplace on a winter's night and a nice picnic with your family and mates and pretty eyes and trains and capturing beautiful scenes on camera just so you won’t forget and new countries and when the light is perfect and kisses on the forehead and being broken but laughing about it and when the sky is blue and songs that make you smile and sand in your shoes and when you laugh and laugh and laugh
I wish all Muslims a blessed Ramadan. May Allah grant us strength and peace and beyond and bless our families and friends in this holy month. Amin.
Dear City of many races,Good food and Humid weather.
You've given me so much for the pass fifteen years and I feel like I owe you. So maybe you've never given us snow,castles, or anything like that. But ah,that's okay,you still have many varieties of good food and I love you for that!
Happy 45th Independence Day Singapore! Best wishes for many years to come.
Cities at night, I feel, contain men who cry in their sleep and then say Nothing. It’s nothing. Just sad dreams. Or something like that…Swing low in your weep ship, with your tear scans and sob probes, and you would mark them. Women—and they can be wives, lovers, gaunt muses, fat nurses, obsessions, devourers, exes, nemeses—will wake and turn to these men and ask, “What is it?” And the men will say, “Nothing. No it isn’t anything really. Just sad dreams.”
The Information by Martin Amis
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I went for the family event thing this afternoon like I was told to. I was right,most of my relatives were there. Some I knew,some I didn't and most I'd forgotten their names. But this time,it was quite different. While I was there, I spotted a little statue of the Eiffel Tower and a very pretty and big picture of Paris city hanging on the wall with only the the Eiffel Tower in colour, as though it was lit with bright yellow lights,while the rest of the city was in black and white. It turns out that my Aunt had gone to Paris for work matters. I didn't know that. So instead of watching the adults talking amongst themselves, I admired the picture while remembering the times I'd been there and thought Paris city had never been so beautiful, and was as though the picture was smiling the brightest of smiles which made it much more beautiful then it already was.
But there was this feeling of sadness inside my heart that was very much hard to explain. It was a little sad for me. Paris had to be so beautiful but so faraway at the same time.
I'm in a castle standing in a tower, looking down through a window at the beautiful garden, the sun setting in the distance.
The beauty in the moment brings tears to my eyes.
Sky blue pink, the backdrop for roses in ever color blooming in the garden. — Lisa Schroeder (Chasing Brooklyn)
*** Its been about a week since I last updated. I am so sorry. The reason I left my blog for a bit is because I had a really busy week.My exams just started today. (English and Chemistry.) So the pass couple of days I was busy with school work and such. I got so caught up with school work that I didn't realise I was worrying again. And it got so bad that i tired myself,my throat began to hurt,my body ached and I fall ill the day before the first two papers (yesterday) But thank god I felt better this morning. The two papers today was alright and I hope for the very best that the result will turn out good My exams only ends next Thursday so I'm going to leave this space for awhile.Till then.
(writing to her father) “I have learnt how to live… How to be In the world and Of the world, and not just to stand aside and watch. And I will never, never again run away from life. Or from love, either…”
Other than the fact that my pens are always going missing (i think the little elves and gnomes in the school garden took them!)and mom being so overprotective of me,life is fine now. And hopefully it'll get even better. The exams are in one week's time and I have many things to cover on.
Anxious. That's the right word to describe how I'm feeling the pass few hectic days. But that's normal for me I guess,I feel like this all the time and possibly,everyday of my life. I can't wait for everything to be over,then I'll sleep forever till next season,and flyaway to dreamland.
I wish everyone a lovely day. May all of you gain the desires of you heart. love.
"I will tell you what Jeanne was like. She was like a piano in a country where everyone has had their hands cut off." — Angela Carter
Question: We have family and friends who loves and cares for us,but when stuff happens, really serious stuff happens,you just feel so alone and you cannot tell people. They'll probably listen,but they don't know everything. There's just some stuff that you can't share. So what do you do then?
The weather looks nice today,and I thought how wonderful it'd be if we do a picnic or tea party. Just thinking about it sounds comforting and relaxing. We'll invite close friends and the birds,bunnies and faeries. We could sit on cool damp grass,have tea,read books,admire pretty nature and eat colourful berries. We could watch the clouds and daydream all we want without no one to interrupt us and we'd stay out till the evening and watch the sunset.
I think that'll be nice,we often dine at fine restaurants,bars and cafes, why not do something different this time. <3
In his highly acclaimed novel NEVER LET ME GO, Kazuo Ishiguro (THE REMAINS OF THE DAY) created a remarkable story of love, loss and hidden truths. In it he posed the fundamental question: What makes us human? Now director Mark Romanek (ONE HOUR PHOTO), writer Alex Garland and DNA Films bring Ishiguro's hauntingly poignant and emotional story to the screen. Kathy (Oscar® nominee Carey Mulligan, AN EDUCATION), Tommy (Andrew Garfield, BOY A, RED RIDING) and Ruth (Oscar® nominee Keira Knightley, PRIDE & PREJUDICE, ATONEMENT) live in a world and a time that feel familiar to us, but are not quite like anything we know. They spend their childhood at Hailsham, a seemingly idyllic English boarding school. When they leave the shelter of the school and the terrible truth of their fate is revealed to them, they must also confront the deep feelings of love, jealousy and betrayal that threaten to pull them apart.
I really want to watch this film. But unfortunately,its rated R which means I'm not allow to. I've not yet read the book though. I just happened to come across this when I was browsing videos on YouTube. But I heard the book is a really great read. I'll most definitely get it sooner or later. I watched it for the first time and got really attracted to the story and I had this strong desire to watch it. I really like (literature) love stories like this,they've got the best lines,they alsways left me in deep wonder and thought about people and life.
I'm really sorry,but I couldn't refrain myself from posting these lines that caught my attention from this 2 min 29 secs trailer,there's something about them that I personally feel is really deep.
"....and now i spend most of my time not looking forwards but looking back on what happened..."
"there once was a boy who had ran off beyond boundary,they found him in the woods with his hands and feet cut off. who told you this stories? everybody knows them. and how would you they're true. you make up stories as horrible as that."
"i feel tommy really likes you as a friend,he just doesn't see you that way"
"we didn't have to look into your souls,we had to see if you had souls at all."
"i wish i could help you,you're poor creatures."
"maybe none of us really understand what we've live through or deal with till we had enough time"
Sunlight sounds like a symphony I’ve yet to hear without teary eyes, or a feeling similar to that of anticipation of disappearing entirely I used to say that it were better that I’d not speak unless spoken to, but now I’m not so sure today I thought I’d lost my voice as I waited for you to pick up the phone six rings and I hung up you won’t call back I watched the world wake up while everyone else slept and the light bled through the fog, the color of chrysanthemums all i wanted was to know that I could sleep again, tire again because my heart’s been beating for so long and the sound it’s beginning to define who I am quite simply alive in place more related to a string of pearls, a porcelain key than all the creeps and grows on earth wild and tangled awake and asleep, always singing with the passing of hours I’d rather be put on mute.
Finally,finally,finally the trailer is out. Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows.
I really cannot wait for the movie to come in theatres.
I remembered the first time I set myself into the the world of magical wands,brooms and magical school.
I was about 9-10 years old and I happened to saw the trailer of The Prisoner of Azkaban on television. I didn't know what came over me but I just had this urging,exciting feeling of watching it. It was really strange because at that time I didn't know anything about the series at all. But I just went ahead and saw it,along with my Mom and Dad. That's when my craze for the series began. Surprisingly, even my Mom like it!!
Seeing the Deathly Hallows trailer has made me felt sad that the series was coming to an end. But at the same time I am so very,very thankful to J.K Rowling for creating this magnificent magical Harry Potter world that everybody loves. Her imagination and creativity is beyond words. Her books shall be cherished forever.
P.S. Seeing this made me forget that Twilight even existed! Sorry Twilight fans.
I've finally managed to upload the pictures of the trip.So anyway,the pictures are in the order that I took,from the 1st day 'till the last. I visited six countries in total. London>Paris>Belgium>Holland>Germany>Switzerland
London-We stayed 2 nights in London and we did a city tour; Tower o London,Buckingham Place and other historical attractions. We also went outside of London to Oxford Street,where they showed us the colleges and universities and explained on how the education system works. We also went to Stratford upon Avon also know as Shakespeare's Birthplace and I was feeling so excited at that time getting to enter the little cottage and stepping on the wooden floor that he(one of the greatest poets) use to walk on. They showed us the around the little hose,into the his bedrooms,the kitchen,the garden. But unfortunately they did not allow photos to be taken in there :( So then we went back to the city and I did some shopping and I got to ride on and English cab for the first time in my life! I wish I had more time in England though,because I wanted to explore more. I wanted to see the theatre,museums,try riding the bus,I wanted to do some more shopping.
Paris-So let me tell you about the embarrassing thing that happened to me in this city first. I was at Galeries Lafayette,the huge shopping mall where many,many people come at shop at. I was browsing the souvenirs section,when I accidentally dropped one of glass souvenir! And people were going "ooooh"and i was feeling panicky and then the shop assistant came and she kept saying "itz ok,itz ok" and i kept saying "I'm so sorry,I'm so sorry" then she began to rearranged the souvenirs and I went further away from there and i pretended to look at things as if it the stares didn't bother me at all and then everybody continued on with their lives. Apart from that,we took a city tour around Paris and went for the Seine river cruise. It was splendid and Paris is a really beautiful city!
Belgium-I shop quite a lot in Belgium plus and we visited the statue of "The Little Boy". I don't quite remember its actual name but its has got something to do with him peeing,I think.
Holland,Amsterdam-WINDMILLS & CHEESE!! I bought many,many souvenirs here. We visited the countryside and it the scene was really marvellous. My dad joked about wanted to buy a house there. (i wish he would though) And I visited the clog center too. I think they're really pretty and fashionable somehow. We also went for a boat cruise and visited the diamond factory.
Germany-In Germany,we went to Cologne then Frankfurt and Heidelburgh. We board the Rhine river cruise. which I really,really love. Then we viewed Heidelburgh Castle. And we also visited Rhine Falls,the largest waterfall in Europe and also to Lake Titisee Oh,and we also visited the Cuckoo Clock center.
Switzerland- Switzerland was the only place where I didn't shop because the prices there were way over my budget. But the sceneries there were really breathtaking and I went up Mount Alps and thankfully it rained that day,means that there was snow! I got to experience real snow for the first time.
My trip was really amazing and an unforgettable experience,especially since World Cup was going on,cause everybody was so lively on the city streets. I want to go back again. I'll start by counting down my spending and saving more money.
P.S. I look really pathetic and un-glam in those photos,also my photography is really bad. I apologise for that! I will reply to all of you tomorrow,I'll wake up bright and early and catch up some blogs tomorrow.
I'm finally back home in Singapore (pretty sad though) The trip was really fabulous and a great experience. Europe was really magical,the whether was really cooling and I love it to bits. Its very,very different from Singapore. But there were some not-so-good moments. Like the time when I completely humiliated myself in Paris and the disagreement I still had with my Mom. And two weeks passed by just like that,I wish I didn't have to leave and it was so bad that I got so upset and had fever on the way home from Switzerland. I won't give you the full details now,since the pictures aren't here yet. I'll upload them sometime this week.
The daily routine is starting again,mom is STILL yelling at me,school is starting soon and I'm still feeling down. My life here sucks,big time.
P.S. I want go back to Europe again,settle there and leave all these people behind.
10 Things you desire 1.Snow 2.a horse,although I'm not allowed to 3.a camera,I'll get a chance to post some pictures at least. 4.sit and talk to someone about anything. its been a long time since i did. 5.know how to play a musical instrument. 6.i want to meet various authors. 7.get an A or at least a B for Math 8.attend to a ballroom dance 9.not feel awkward in crowds 10.get my house done its makeover!
8 Things you do everyday: 1.Daydream 2.People watch 3.Joke around with my cousin Alisha 4.Tumbling and Blogging 5.Feel panicky and worry for no particular reason at all. 6.wish that I were... 7.Get lonely 8.Not go to sleep when I should
7 Things you enjoy: 1.reading, libraries, ALL books 2.Waffles with honey and smoothies! YUM :) 3.Theatre,Poetry,Literature 4.Watching C.S.I Miami 5.Finding a new artist/song that none of my friends ever heard of 6. Buying notebooks,diaries,bags,and purses and accessories 7.Reading beautiful writing piece
6 Things that will always win your heart: 1.Flowers,any type! 2.Boys with soft ,great hair 3.People who are charming and nice 4.Words. always words. people that write/speak beautiful,nice words 5.Paperdolls 6.Vintage photos
5 Favourites: 1.Movie: I don’t think my favourite film has been made yet. I have dreams about it all the time. 2.Song:I like any song that has a beautiful meaning to it 3.Book: i have many favourites,its so hard to choose. Sorry! 4.Band: I don't have one to be honest..! 5.Colour: Pink and Black.
4 Smells you enjoy: 1.sweet popcorn 2.old books 3.white roses and rain 4.coffee
3 Places you want to go: 1.Egypt to see river Nile 2.Venice 3.The Moon,Neverland,Castles...and so many other beautiful places!
2 Animals you love: 1.Horse. I've adored them evers since I was little. Maybe I'll build up a stable one day. Maybe.. 2.Owls. Those mysterious creatures are beautiful.
1 Person you’d marry on the spot: 1.I'm not sure,they're many attractive,handsome men out there. Question is whether would he want me?
Thank you to: Random Rawr (http://randomrawr.blogspot.com/) Alice In wonderland (http://thewondersofalice.blogspot.com/) Christiejolu (http://christiejolu.blogspot.com/) Dandalily (http://iwantedtoprovesomething.blogspot.com/) P.s. I am me(http://andsomyheartcrumbles.blogspot.com/) Cara(http://caraalynn.blogspot.com/) and to everyone who I forgot to mention and also to those who comment on my posts!
Like I promised,I'd do the tag by this week. And I'm sorry if its different from the ones you've tagged me,since I've missed out on some them,I decided to come up with a new one. I hope you don't mind! And this goes out to everyone!!
Soon enough it’ll be summer,I'll have a month break from school and I’ll read more books and travel to magical places and (hopefully) I'll smile more and laugh more and cry less and dance more and swim more, turn my skin into liquid summer from staying in pools for too long and soon enough I’ll have the right words, I hope to god i’ll have the right words.
I had a great birthday yesterday,there was ice-cream cake :D
From the bottom of my heart, THANK YOU to everyone who wished me Happy Birthday. You made it so much better,than it already was. Thank you. I love you all. And Tywo,you're wonderful,thank you for making a post especially for me.
Mom is feeling unwell. It sucks. This is the time when I start to feel Gulity.Sad.Self-Critical.Afraid. That sucks even alot more.
I'm starting to regret things. Mean things that I've said to/about my Mom. Even for the ones that I wasn't at fault.
So this is me, A selfless,hypocrite daughter. I feel terrible.
"The devil says it's my fault I'm stupid enough to listen to him."
P.S. I didn't give Mom anything for Mother's Day. She doesn't like things like that. She prefers love & affection from her daughter. I'm trying. I'm trying. I'm trying.
One day I am going to get a deer, like Audrey had Ip. I am going to love it a lot, and hopefully it will love me back. That’s the thing with animals. All they want from you is food, and shelter and to be pet, and they will love you. It’s a simple and pleasant thing and there's little fuss over somethings. I wish humans were uncomplicated like that.
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