Do you ever just get that feeling where you don’t wanna talk to anybody?
You don’t want to smile and you don’t want to fake being happy, but at the same time,
you don’t know exactly what is wrong either. There isn’t a way to explain it to someone
who doesn’t already understand. If you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone.
People have stopped being comforting, and being alone never was.
At least when you’re alone no one constantly asks you what is wrong
and there isn’t anyone who won’t take, ‘I don’t know,’ as an answer.
You feel the way you do just because, you hope the feeling will pass soon
and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait.
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I've been so frustrated and annoyed with almost everything
and I've acted harsh towards everyone lately.
I feel sad and lonely all the time. I don't know what's wrong with me.
I'm sorry.
don't be sorry.
ReplyDeletewe all have days and times like that.
you will sort everything out :)
xo
all the time.
ReplyDeleteyou'll make it through.
you deserve better than this madness, never ever forget it. and i understand.
xoxo.
Oh, I know that feeling all-too-well, now. You know what, Nabilah, I won't fool you that it'll go away because the only thing to make it go away is to force it out the door. I mean, focus on something else, something so absorbing that you forget about yourself. I know that it might not make any sense what I'm writing, but - I really do know how you feel. And - about your comment on my blog - I'm shy as well and I never in my entire life started a conversation with someone I didn't know - unless I really had to. But don't say you've got no friends. Remember you always have a friend in me and should you feel like, I don't know, talking about your problems you know you can always email me, right?
ReplyDeleteI understand, Nabilah, I really do. The need for solitude is a need that touches many of us, and this if often coupled by unexplainable sadness or longing. Stay strong, know that we're here for you, and have hope.
ReplyDeletedon't apologise.
ReplyDeletei feel like that too.
exactly like that.
I feel that way a lot of the time...Music is usually what eventually makes me feel better...It is something we can not control...I read it is the chemicals in our brains going out of whack for a while but they usually go back...Have you talked to your Mom that you feel this way??? Or maybe a school counselor...I think you may be surprised that they understand and that it is not so unusual. Teen years are hard ones...So much going on in the body and mind...Things will get brighter...
ReplyDeleteI totally get what you are talking about here, except the wanting to be alone. I prefer to be in a crowded place or group of people where no one is chatting to me: being left alone without feeling lonely.
ReplyDeleteBut you are not alone in feeling like this. Very many people do, and it is actually blogging which has made me realise that. It's nice that there are so many people who are open and supportive on here.
I am sure things will pick up again soon. Relax and it will pass. These things always take time.
Hugs!
Kate x
Please stop aplogizing, you control your actions, not your feelings.
ReplyDeleteI get that way sometimes...I don't want to be happy and I'm not going to pretend to be either.
ReplyDeleteI really don't like the feeling.
Don't apologize.
xx,
~Abby~
when i felt like this i took it out on a friend who really didnt need of deserve it, he understands but every day he still asks if i hate him when i do little teasing things i normaly used to do. Dont apolgise, but make sure you have anything you need to say sorry for
ReplyDeletexo
no need for apologies, if that is how you feel then that is how you feel though I wish it wasn't.
ReplyDeleteNabilah, I feel the same now. I don't know why, but everything seems strange. I blame it on change.
ReplyDeleteI hope we both feel better soon.
LOVE!