Chase Away the Ghosts from My Head

Coach: All right, Patch. let's say you're at a party. the room is full of girls of all shapes and sizes. You see blondes, brunettes, redheads, a few girl with black hair. Some are talkative, while other appear shy. You've one girl who fits your profile - attractive, intelligent and vulnerable. Dow do you let her know you're interested?

Patch: Single her out. Talk to her.

Coach: Good. Now for the big question - how do you know if she's game or if she wants you to move on?

Patch: I study her. I figure out what she's thinking and feeling. She's not going to come right out and tell me, which is why i have to pay attention. Does she turn her body toward mine? Does she hold me eyes, then look away? Does she bite her lip and play with her hair, the way Nora is doing right now?

— Becca Fitzpatrick (Hush, Hush)

Maybe the first time you saw her you were ten. She was standing in the sun scratching her legs. Or tracing letters in the dirt with a stick. Her hair was being pulled. Or she was pulling someone’s hair. And a part of you was drawn to her, and a part of you resisted—wanting to ride off on your bicycle, kick a stone, remain uncomplicated. In the same breath you felt the strength of a man, and a self-pity that made you feel small and hurt. Part of you thought: Please don’t look at me. If you don’t, I can still turn away. And part of you thought: Look at me.

The History of Love, 2005

-Nicole Krauss

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I know I'm posting this late,and I'm not sure if I've mentioned this before,but I want to thank Petty Writer,Christiejolu and Stella for the wonderful awards they had given me quite recently.
Petty Writer:http://pettywitter.blogspot.com/
Christiejolu:http://christiejolu.blogspot.com/
Stella:http://justimagination90.blogspot.com/

I don't really have anything much to talk about today. It just that my mind is so occupy on so many things. I so very worried about the exams that I'll be taking the next month,the end of the year,and the year after that,and the year after that year. I'm worried that I'm not studying enough,I'm not trying enough, I'm worried about how am I going to make it to college. I'm worried that I'll fail again. I worry about everything.

MyNameIsNabilaHazirah

I got this idea from Tiana Lachelle and since Cara gave me an award,I thought it was perfect to post it along with this award. Thank You to these two lovely ladies!

Award by Cara-caraalynn.blogspot.com

(I just love the teddy bear)
The rules are basicly;
*give this award to 10 sweet and friendly bloggers,
*make a post about the award including the picture and mention the person who gave it to you,
*put the award on your blog,
and
*let your nominated 10 know you've awarded them by leaving a comment!

The 10 nominess are;
Tiana-tianalachelle.blogspot.com
Chlo-sleepy-tigers.blogspot.com
Athena-lets-flyaway-now.blogspot.com
Just a little bit of French-justalittlebitfrench.blogspot.com
iLove-letters2anex.blogspot.com
Gina-motherof1princessand2princes.blogspot.com
Battleinmind-battleinmind.blogspot.com
Kakes-lightsofamman.blogspot.com
Sabine Cara-brokenintimacy.blogspot.com
Levianna-levianacoccia.blogspot.com

:D

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The post that I wanted to post like Tiana's-tianalachelle.blospot.com was an "About Me" post. Since I've never really told you some stuff about myself,so here's my chance to do so.

My name is: Nabilah Hazirah
Fave colour: Pink! I like pink ever since I was little. I kinda blame Barbie for this.
Muisc I love listening to: Country,Acoustic,Pop
Things I like: Muisc,Books,Tv,Internet,Unicorns,Cats,Flowers,Vintage stuff,Rainy Nights,Dreaming,Writing,Classic Stories,Rolloer Coasters,Quotes,Cotton Candy,Ice-cream,Chocolate,Mangoes,Strawberries,Travelling,Nice People.
Things I hate: Mean People.

Random Facts:
-I wear glasses.
-I rarely wear T-shirts when I go out. i wear blouses or sundresses instead.
-I really wish my school was like Hogwarts and the teachers would trun into cats and warewolves.
-I like the feeling of passing a test.
-I wish I started this blog years ago.
-I want to be skinny and lovely.
-I like making sad people happy again.
-I suck at hairstyling. That's why I I always stick to ponytails.
-I may write some depressing stuff and it may seem that I'm emotionally unstable,but there's one thing I will NEVER do. Cut myself. And its simply because I'm afraid to do so.

Lastly,I remember reading a comment,I think its from knk. Said that I've met some bad situations. Its true,I have,plenty of 'em. And even though,I've regretted and feel sorry for myself all the time,I leran many so much form it. It taught me many things about human nature and that's how I got about observing people.

Bad situations were:
-I got hospitalized early last year. It was beacause I had fever,and the doctors found out that there was bacteria in my blood. I know,eeww! But thank god,they're gone now! :)
During that period of time,my friends didn't bother about me.
-I've experienced the "i like him,but he likes her" situation.
-I got into a fight with one of my juniors last year.
-The feelings of being the irrelevant one in a group
-Having a shitty friend,whcih lead me into even more bad situations.
And some other stuff.

I can't find the right words to describe how I felt during this times. The feeling was so terrible,I had talked to no one because nobody gives a damn to what I had to say. I was laughing almost every single day during those times and I look as if I was okay. But the truth was I wasn't.
I was sad everyday. It was the the sadness I haven't felt since childhood. The kind of sadness you feel at the end of summer. When summer love comes to a halt,the fireflies are gone,the ponds have dried up and the plants are wilted,weary from being so green.

But I'm slightly better now,better than before.

So that was my "About Me". Now you know me a little better. Happy May Day everyone.

Another Award!

I was tag by AliceInWonderland! Thank you! I love the award,looks so cute ^^Now,I have to answer the questions that are attached to it..

1.If you were a Disney cartoon character, who would you be?
Evil Witch from Snow White OR Donald Duck. Haha,I know,so random.
2.Sweet or Savoury?
Sweet.
3.If you could spend an evening with anyone, fact/fiction, living or dead, who would you choose?
You,anyone who's reading this :)
4.Plane, Train or Automobile?
Plane.
5.Picnic or Cinema?
Picnic. Cinemas are expensive :/
6.Cat or Dog?
Cat.
7.Book or D.V.D?
Book!
8.Long hair or short hair?
I don't know,I like long hair,but short hair is so much easier to handle.
9.Favourite T.V. Show?
C.S.I Miami!
First Band or Artist that you followed?
Avril Lavigne.

Similar to the tag that Just a little bit of French tagged me,I have to come up with my own set of questions.

1.What's the biggest misconception about you?
2. Black or Blue?
3. The Simpsons or Spongebob?
4. Your dream?
5. What's the movie you last cried to?
6. Descibe your day in one word.
7. Which place would you like to visit?
8. Which Mr Men/Little Miss best descibe you?

I pass this on to:
Cara
S and Q
Its simple love

"Hi.Um. I know I'm random,but I gave you an award. Because I think you're awesome like that."

Thanks to Misery who gave me this prestigious award,Yay!:D

Here are the procedures;

1. Get really excited that you got the coolest award EVER! (Done that ^^)
2. Choose ONE of the following options of accepting the OMB award:
(a) Get really drunk and blog for 15 minutes straight, or for as long as you can focus.
(b) Write about your most embarrassing moment.
(c) Write a "Soundtrack of your childhood" post.
(d) Make your next blog a 'vlog'/video blog. Basically, you're talking to the camera about whatever.
(e) Take a picture of yourself first thing in the morning, before you do anything else (hair, make up, etc)
and post it.
3. Pass the award on to at least three, but preferably more, awesome bloggers as yourself. Don't forget to
tell them.

The "Sountrack of my Childhood"

1. Avril Lavigne "Don't Tell Me"
This is actually the first song that I ever heard on MTV. Avril Lavigne was the one who got me into music.I wanted to be like her so much back then. Heh.
2. The Corrs "Summer Sunshine" I used to love this song so much,and them of course.I think the reason I love them so much was because of the slow,jazzy and heartfelt related lyrics that they sang and it was also because I wasn't too familiar with country music back then.
3. Busted "Who's David" They were the first boy band that I actually enjoyed listening to
4. Black Eyed Peas "Don't Lie" Ha,this song was just too catchy not to be listed
5. Vanessa Carlton "White Houses" When I saw her playing the piano in the music video,I asked my Mom whether I could attend piano lessons but she didn't really support the idea. Which means,I'm still blur with the piano keys.

I think that's about it,I know there only a few but when I was little,well not so,about 10-12 years old,those where the only songs that I listened to. I wasn't really exposed to the whole music thing.

I pass this award to;
Petty Writer
Just a little bit of French
Kakes
Francesca
Michelle
Emm.
Random Rawr
Seli
Tywo
Abby
Brooklyn
Disaster Girl
Petal
Helen
Christejolu
Jen
Kimberly Franklin
Frangipani Princess
SmileyFreak
and to all the other people who ever commented and follow me.

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let's try our best to burn this filth.

Happy Good Friday,Happy Start of April,Happy End of March & Happy Weekend!

I've been meaning to this post,but I'm always delaying it(Sorry about that!). But now I can finally post this,

I wanna thank the people who have given me awards and tagged me;
Abby
Tywo
Mai
Kylie
Kimberly Franklin


Thank you so much!!

And I wanna thank my followers(even to those who has never commented before),and those who have commented on any one of my post before. It really means alot to me knowing that there are people who actually take any interest into what I'm writing.
(Because I've always been the type that no one really cares about.)
And thanks to one of my friends from school,Foo Sin Yun,for being the only person from school that I know who reads my blog.

To all my followers and the blogs that I've linked at the sides,
I wish you were really in my life and that we live on the same street. Because I feel that I can connect with you so much more than those that are in my life right now. *HEARTS*
P.S. your blogs are all amazing!

Awarding & Tagging

Random Rawr (randomrawr.blogspot.com) & Seli (wotiheart.blogspot.com) gave a blog award,a few days ago,and Abby tagged me. Thank you darlings <3>


1. Music,I'm so typical :\
2. Bookstores. There's this local bookstore,in Singapore,and I love going to the far end,because that's where the good books are,and its so peaceful. I just love it.
3. Ice-cream.
4. Surprises,good surprises of course.
5. Getting the THINGS that I want.
6. Laughing out loud.
7. Meeting new people and just talking with them.
8. Movies.
9. Blogging
10. Magazines.

Basically,the things that makes me happy are the things that occupies most of time when I'm feeling down .


This is Abby's (thesoapqueen.blogspot.com) tag,
The task: Fill in 12 likes, 1 love, and 8 hates like Cassie in her therapy video. Below, the bolded things are what you MUST include. Link it back to me and pass it on to 3 other bloggers you admire!


Abracadabra, I wish I was Sabrina the teenage witch.
I like having fun,and I don't care if people think I'm a retard.
I like Spongebob,he's my idol
I like being spoilt.
I like guys who are sincere and who actually makes an effort to befriend me.
I like hugs.
I like tear-jerking,romance movies.
I like Miley Cyrus/Hannah Montana.
I like taking photo shots of nature.
I like karma.
I like fizzy drinks,its so gooddd.
I like soap operas
I like being sarcastic
I like my name
I love nice people
Today I acted like a bitch,I'm sorry...
In some ways, I love everything.
It's less, it's less of a thing to like it's less distinct, it's less particular.
I like things that I like, but I love everything.
There's more choice in like
Cause even the worst things have things you love in them.
I don't know what you mean about things I hate.
I hate mirrors.
I hate rude and ignorance people
I hate crying because of a heartbreak
I hate school.
I hate rainy mornings
I hate cliques
I hate sleeping early
I hate myself,sometimes.

Now,I really don't know who to tag. You know what? If you happen to be commenting or if I left a comment on your blog,then by all means,take it. Whoever you are,you I honestly think you deserve it.

I'm home!! The vacation was half fun and half annoying. But before I rant and review my holiday trip,I wanna share some tags!



I received the the "awesome blogger" award from Seli (http://www.wotiheart.blogspot.com/), the "from me to you" from Random Rawr (www.randomrawr.blogsot.com/) and the "lovely blog" award form Janice (www.jforjanice.blogspot.com) . YAY!!

THANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOU to these wonderful people!!!



Okay so the rules are basically the same,

Copy & paste the award

List some random things about yourself

Tag other bloggers

And notify them.



For the "one lovely blog" award,I have to list 7 things that I'm loving;

1) The fact that I'm finally blogging right now.

2) That tomorrow I'm going to my grandma's house and meeting my cousins there.

3) I bought some really pretty stuff from my trip to Thailand.

4) Having nothing to do right now.

5) Daydreaming.

6) Being on Facebook and taking the quizzes.

7) Typing this.


And for the other two awards is to list 7 random things that people don't know about you.

1) I am the only child

2) I'm currently in love with Youtube and Twitter

3) I love buying books than clothes

4) One of my bad habits is bitting my nails.

5) Whenever I laugh,I cry :)

6) I have deep feelings for things

7) In school, I'm the nerdy girl with glasses,who is always on 'the outside'

So I'm gonna tag 7 other bloggers...
-Iva Messy ((http://www.ivamessy.blogspot.com/)
-Here comes the sun (http://www.amanda-thomas.blogspot.com/)
-Alisha (http://www.rforabbitz.blogspot.com/)
-What I heart (http://www.wotiheart.blogspot.com/)
-My Itchy Foot (http://www.myitchyfoot.blogspot.com/)
-Frangipani princess (http://www.frangipaniprincess.blogspot.com/)
-The Little blog of happiness (http://www.littleblogofhappiness.blogspot.com/)

Congratulations to them!!

I'm not using my own computer now,since its giving me endless problems and so its really hard to blog.
So I thought I just put like many many,many post in one day....

Yay!! I received my first blog award ^^ Really thankful and happy about it. But it comes with 7 seven conditions though...

1. Thank whoever gave this to you
2. Copy award
3. Post it in your blog
4. Tell us 7 things that your readers don’t know
5. Link 7 new bloggers
6. Notify winners of the award with a comment on their blog
7. Keep being awesome

Okay so 1st of all I would like thank My Itchy Foot
for giving me this award! ^^

So I already did # 2 and 3

#5, the new winners are: BB,Petty Writer,Nadia,Random Rawr,SmileyFreak,Alice in Wonderland and Aisyah
Congrats!! :)
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#4 ...

This is my fave I love random list like this,

1) Last night I had the weirdest and dream in the history of 'my dreams that I could remember' o____o
There were 2 scenes, the 1st was I was in this room with my classmates and everything,than suddenly out of nowhere,my parents came in... then my Mom became mad at me for like no reason at all,she scolded me in front of all my friends..and the way she punished me was crazy,it was scary!! And my Dad did nothing..(This was creepy because apparently TODAY my Mom did actually scolded me!) So blah,blah,blah..she scolded me.. THEN the weird part came,the scene changed and I was suddenly sitting at home,my parents were busy cleaning the house, (I dunno why) and my classmates weren't there and I was sitting there watching TV,and you wanna,know what I was watching?? CAMP ROCK 2!!! I had absolutely NO IDEA why in the world was I suddenly at home watching Camp Rock when like two minutes before that my Mom was punishing me in front of all my friends! (Besides,Camp Rock 2 won't be showing till next year right?) And the funny thing was,you know Camp Rock was suppose to take place in Camp right? But the place that I saw in my 'dream TV' wasn't in a school hallway!! And when I woke up I was like, "Okay..what just happened???!!" It was really strange!!

2) I got new books today!! Yay!!

3) I'm an owl,I stay veryyy late at night. Especially if I already took a long nap in the afternoon,'cause I won't be able to fall asleep at night.

4) The chore that I hate doing is,folding clothes. Because my Mom is kinda strict about this,she has to make sure that its neat,the folding proper,line together and stuff like that..

5) My room is in a mess right now,well actually only the shelves. They are too many books,its almost like a library.. :(

6) I can live without my cellphone but not my MP3 player...which means I cant live without music... and the computer.. Besides I hardly text messages or call my friends. They use the Internet more..

7) Its 2.08 AM now and I'm suppose to be sleeping,but Im obviously not(Told ya I was an owl!). If my Mom were to find out,she'll kill me. Eppp!!!

So that's it I need to do #6,and I'd tried my best to be #7 :D