I'm crazily self conscious and I don't know how to deal with my feelings. No matter where I go I feel awkward and out of place,I keep trying to convince myself that if I looked better or weighed less that would change but deep down I don't think it will.And I have an irrational fear of actually talking about emotional problems. I keep everything locked up inside and it killed me,I nearly went fucking crazy.
(i did not send this,its from an anonymous)
This is me,before I started this blog. It was a really hard time for me. I didn't have anyone I could trust so I just kept my mouth shut about everything. I know,its disgusting and really freaky. But its true,I acted in front of everyone. And I have to admit,I'm quite impress with my acting skills,almost everyone believed me.They all thought I was okay. When the truth was,most of the time, I was not okay.
But now,I'm really glad I can just pour it all here. Darlings,thank you for all your lovely comments. It makes me smile,whenever I read them.
I won't be able to reply to everyone by today. But I will by tomorrow or Friday. Give me a little bit of time.
And school today was fine. I adore my bag much more now.