I couldn't believe it.
I couldn't believe those words came out from my mother's mouth.
I quarreled with my Mom last night. She wouldn't stop talking,she wouldn't stop nagging.. She went on and on all night. I got so fed-up,so I went against her. I had no friggin idea what she wants from me. I cried last night after hearing what she said to/about me. Now my left eye hurts and I just feeling like sleeping. My mom,I sometimes think that she regrets having me as her daugther. Does she? It seems like it. I'm only a burden. I'm not even sure if I ever made her proud of me.
And I know that if I talk this out to anyone,they'll give me the same respond.
"Your mother cares for you." Yes,I'm well aware of that. I think its me,I'm the one with the problem,the one at fault. Its always me.
She came into my room a few minutes after. I was sobbing,hugging a pillow to my face. I guess,I was expecting myself to suffocate.
"I'm sorry,I love you" she said. She's done this before. She'll scream,apologize,then scream again after a couple of weeks.
She tried to hug me. I backed away. "Don't,stay away!!" I said,still sobbing. She tried to hug again,but I refused. Her loving actions were too soon for me to accept,especially hearing after hearing what she said.
She gave up and left. I was pretty sure she was crying too.
I wasn't crying or overreacting because she yelled at me. I was crying because of the hurtful things she said. Worse,it was all coming from my mother.
P.S. I saw the news headlines today. I hope everyone is doing okay.